I feel that I owe one since kazikie
posted :) Life has been a little hectic so sorry for the delay. It was really nice out today so this afternoon I laid in the grass and went through my routine. I tried to do a little astral but I could tell I was starting to fall asleep, so I came back and focused on all the sounds around me instead. Eventually it seemed like every object that was making a sound, I could also feel through the earth. Then I opened my eyes for a few minutes and enjoyed the clouds and the birds, even spotting one that was pretty well hidden in a tree. Kind of wished that in school I'd been encouraged to develop this kind of awareness, instead of stare at a piece of paper or computer screen and block everything else out.
I know it's been forever since I posted something here. I have been lurking and honestly, I am still getting use to everything here.
In my last meditation I have started learning from a Astural Spirit Names Kahn. As some may notest in some of the other parts of LJ, Helaris is also learning from this same spirit. We are both blessed to have such a great mentor. I am copying and pasting it from my own collection of Journal entries. So without further adu.
I started out meeting Jorith and Kahn at the sun Pool. When I first got there I discovered that I was wearing a crystal on a chain around my neck. It was a crystal given to me by a close friend. Jorith lent me some energy to help my defense. The Kahn spoke to me. His voice was deep but wise and inviting as well as strong. He told me that he was glad I was learning through Helaris. And that he intended it to be that way. And now he wanted to test my defense against energy leeches. I took a moment to focus my energies, and used the stone around my neck to form a sword. It was made of pure Amethyst Crystal. All of the sudden I felt my energy start to be sucked out of me. Kahn was advancing on me at that point.
I dodged his physical attack and used some energy to create a crystal quark in the energy vacuum. After the energy has cased to be sucked away. I swung the sword at Kahn, but with a speed never seen before He caught the sword in his hand. And with a solid clawed grip he ripped the sword out from my hands. He seemed a little surprised at the attack but quickly retaliated. He simply spun his tail around and knocked me on my feet.
He then said that it was enough. He told me I had a lot to learn, but had a lot of potential. He told me he was surprised I had used a crystal quark. And that that was a wise and good desion. He said that I have been paying attention to the things He had been teaching Helaris. He said that together sharing our experiences would greatly benefit each other.
He also said that the crystal I carried is very powerful and since it was a gift. It will never fail me. He said Helaris must indeed believe you to be a very good friend to give you a gift that follows you into this place. For a second I looked surprised that he knew it was from Helaris. Then I nodded. And said thank you for what you have taught me. And then I faded back to the physical plain, and went to sleep. For I was quite tired.
It's been two and half months since anyone but me posted, hmm. If no one else is going to post, I'd just as soon keep my meditations to my own journal. But if anyone else wants to get this started again, just post, and I will resume posting as well. :)
Looks like we got a few new members recently. Welcome!!!
I haven't been enforcing that two-months-of-lurking-and-you-get-kicked out rule (or even really checked to see if anyone's violating it). I guess that's A) because so far we're still a pretty small and not terribly active group, B) because no one has posted friends-only, so there's no real reason yet why we have to keep lurkers out of the community, and C) because I hate being mean. Let me know if you'd prefer it to be enforced at this point in time (for motivation's sake, or whatever else).
Despite having lots of time to chill out at home over the past couple weeks, I didn't do a lot of meditation. When I'm around my parents it's hard to get twenty minutes that are peaceful and uninterrupted. I suppose I could ask. But anyway, I did get outside and had a wonderful time communing with some rocks.
This morning I actually went through my meditation routine before even getting out of bed, because I was having sinus problems that I didn't want to get out of control. They were bothering me a bit into the early afternoon, but cleared up without any meds and without turning into a bad headache. I should learn to extrapolate this into other methods of body control.
I was feeling relaxed and spiritually attuned again tonight, so I meditated again. In my astral area I merged with a tree, which ended up being such an intense experience that my physical body was uncomfortable... I could feel sap flowing, and the overall sensations were very different from being animal (incl. human) and yet not so alien.
Otherwise I took the shape of this little fairy thing... seemed kind of silly, but it felt right so I went with it.
My aunt gave me a Native American flute CD for Christmas -- Canyon Trilogy by R. Carlos Nakai. It really helped me to chill out tonight.
New Year's Resolution, anyone? Heh, I at least hope I can be doing this more often. I still feel like it's important to my development.
I meditated standing up this past Monday, which somehow worked really well for eliminating stray thoughts. I guess instead of having my mind wander, that last bit of thought went into keeping me from falling over.
I'm in a great mood today but my mind is buzzing about a bit, so hopefully now after meditating, I'll be able to focus and get stuff done.
My white light shielding needed a bit of a recharge earlier this week, because some negative sensations were creeping into it somehow. A Christmas tree was a positive enough image to take care of that. :)
I did get a chance to meditate yesterday, and it was good. My mind was racing around a lot of little odds and ends, so it was hard to focus, but once I did it really helped me to relax. I think I meditated on one or two other occassions since my last post.
Sorry it's been so long since I lasted posted. Lately I have been buesy with work and school. Usually I can find a little time to meditate, but lately I have been too tired to get anyware in meditaion. I can start the meditation process but I end up falling asleep. lol I don't know for sure why I am so tired. I have been going to bed at 9pm. (quite early for me) and waking up a about 7am. Usually I am fully awake for the first hour after getting up. But then I am tired most of the time after that. I think we should have naptime as hour daily rutune. One hour a day right after lunch would be brilant.
So I meditated last Saturday night, and then the following Sunday morning I meditated again and joined a sort of spiritual gathering of students from the wilderness survival school that I went to this summer (and hope to go back to). I got swept right into it and it felt very real to me, even though it wasn't too vivid. And I came away with some new insights about how I should be communing with nature.
This weekend I had a very lazy, dazed feeling, but still had a good meditation tonight which seemed to help that a bit.
Sorry it's been a couple weeks-- school is keeping me very busy and I've had some issues in my personal life as well.
I did have one particularly good experience the Thursday before last. Walking home put me into a very meditative state of mind, so as soon as I got home I laid down in the grass in the backyard. Despite knowing that I had a limited amount of time before the landlord was planning to mow, things worked really well for me and I sent some positive vibes to someone who needs them. Prayer has never been something I've been into-- simply asking for something and assuming that an omnipotent power can hear you and will take it from there. I'm more of the inclination to believe that we are all equally part of the divine, rather than its underlings, and I prefer to take more of an active role. So this for me involved powerful visualization and belief. Even this is something I do very rarely-- wouldn't do it in an attempt to get my favorite team to win or something like that, but this was an example of a person who needed help so that they could help others.
I've meditated a couple other times since then to manage headaches and de-stress, but nothing too notable.